Real Struggles of Lockdown

Well done Me!

Miti’s Talk Podcast is a very old dream of mine, that ‘one day I’ll be professional enough to start something’.

But what would I talk about?

Who would be my guest to have on?

These and so many other questions got me don’t do it just yet. However, lockdown made me grow some balls and created Miti’s Talk anyway, way before I thought I’m ready, still came up with a series and it’s about people around me, and around the world what they’re doing during lockdown. What their voices in there head tells them to do.

I wanted to see in others’ life in a sense, to learn from them, take away good habits that can help me grow and at the meantime, all I do is document it all and share it with all of you.

Maybe Generation Q won’t just give me value only.

But!

The last 2,5 weeks I’ve been distracted with personal life and I haven’t put enough work into this series, which makes me feel I failed you and myself. I wanted to give something during lockdown, but I feel I haven’t fulfil my purpose. I am not creating enough awareness around it.

Everyday I was like, I should do something and get some work done, but I just felt I can’t concentrate and I won’t be able to make any quality piece, anything valuable. So, I just had to gave myself a bit break.

I am not trying to complain, as I spent time with my baby girl, I do workout every day, focusing on complementing a new meal plan (and honestly it’s such a joy) and having lovely days in general.

But I know I don’t do all what I could! And knowing that makes me feel disappointed with myself.

That’s the hardest part. Forgive for myself for not being perfect, for not being productive as much..

I have to learn that it’s okay that life jumps in and turn my plan upside down and it’s okay to feel sad about it .. but it’s not okay to dwell on it for weeks.

It’s time to stand up and continue where I left of.

It is important to be gentle with myself if something I don’t do as I planned. It doesn’t mean I am being lazy or given up, it simply just means that I may need a bit break from that thing and focus on something else. Re-prioritise my days and to-do’s; and maybe that break gives me some fresh perspectives to adjust those project to their best.

I just wanted to share that this lockdown giving me a lot of pressure, as in ‘use your time wisely; now or never’ … and I am not making the most of it and it start eating me up inside.

Surely, I am not being alone with this.

We get easily distracted with life, our phones… and forget that we have something bigger goals to get to. And of course none one achievement comes easy without hard work, we do choose the telly, a new episode of Friends – more like an other season (even so seen it million times).. or watching silly videos on TikTok and scroll on Instagram, than sitting down for a couple of hours and get some shit done.

I hope this short entry helps you realise what you could do better with your time as it helps me big time.

I know what I have to do, and that’s just it: ‘SHUT UP AND DO SOME SHIT’.

This is for me!

How about you, what’s your line?

Peace&Love

Miti