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Beliefs

I found an article I wrote back in November 2018 and I never shared it. Today I went through it and I figured it has a lot to say. For me at least feels very powerful. And this article is resonates with me today even more than two years ago. I am on the path of Self – Awareness and Self – Love journey and this mind- flow is really spoke to me… feels like I sent a message to myself to the future. 🙂 Especially these times we are living in, all the isolations and economic problems because of the pandemic and such. This is the time where we need to actually be there for ourselves just as much that we would be there for anyone else we love!

This little anecdote will let you have an insight of the way my mind works. I even found it myself hard to follow the flow of it 🙂

I feel like I’m running. Not sure away from myself or to myself!? Both in the same time. We are constantly on the road to find ourselves. Most of us are walking on this path without realising it and actually never get to themselves.

Some of us are ‘awake‘ and set foot on the ground with an opened eye. Or two 🙂

Well, I am between the two if that’s even possible. Because I am aware of my blindness –Now–

“Do I have an opened eye?” – Sure, it’s opening up..

But for so long not to able to see between the lines and be blindfolded it became a never questionable thing of:

“Who am I”.

And I was just living life without actually live it.

I am trusting these engrained moves and thoughts. No question asked. Ever.

Sometimes an event triggers you and just like that -snap- you are wide awake. And it’s like you are stepping out of your own body and watching yourself from the outside.

Did that happened to you ever?

“And what do/did you see?” – Take a moment here and answer this question.

Me: I saw a broken, lost girl, kinda on the ground. If not literally..

“So, What’s next?” – Think.

Well, Clean up yourself from the dust And Stand the Hell up!

First step – is for me – to look around you. Examine and analyse:

“How did I get here and why?”

It’s a very painful process but it’s critical to go through with it. Otherwise I’ll close my eyes once again and will just wander and I’ll end up be lost one more time.”

Don’t move just yet. Go deep and get to know yourself. See what’s makes you happy, upsets you, What makes you angry, and confuses you. What ,makes you smile and gives you those butterfly feelings. Learn your emotions, feelings. Learn your body, what tells you.

I find it extremely hard this part, but it’s essential. Being able to read your body, tells you how you feel. Tells you see your thoughts, how actually destroying you! Your life, health.

Yes. Your thoughts. Your mind.

Thoughts have POWER!

In fact they rule my life. Every aspects of it. I attached emotions to them. And that gives them power.

Because they are beliefs at this point. Once they were only A thought nothing more. Later I let them to become something I believed in and lived my life by them. I still do.

How these beliefs are born?

I was thinking a lot where this all started.

I have a theory – of course I have. Always 🙂 – but first a question:

“why on Earth any of us would create such a bad beliefs which are working against us and make us unhappy?”

My answer is:

“we wouldn’t.”

So why they’re even existing at all?

Well, here is a little metaphor or some sort:

If you see a little girl (or boy.) Just watch her and you can see she is only few years old but she believes in magic; she can be a princess. She is playing princess-y now. Live like a princess and yes maybe she dreams of a castle but all she wants is to be happy, to feel loved and wanted by her parents, by her prince and dreams of her children.. a family. She dreams of health and wealth (and if you say you ain’t want wealth, I won’t believe you). And she wants her people (as she is a princess) also love her and follow her. She dreams of honesty and support and fun.

(In my case as a princess dream of an other princess 🙂 ).

But what happens instead? We, adults (parents, teachers) are telling to this little girl she can’t be a princess. Because she isn’t royalty. Because ourselves we are thinking the same way. We couldn’t become a princess or a prince because we ain’t royalties. Because we know the only people can be royalty who actually is. Which is kind of true….

(And yes, everything about money. But we are connecting happiness only to money.)

Actually we want happy life. I would love to travel the world. And I still would like to believe that I will. But all we dream of happiness itself (that’s differs what’s make us individuals happy but you sure see the point).

That little girl’s family and those big people who she looks up to not knowingly broke her dreams to pieces.

She hears CAN’T to much that she isn’t good enough for something.. isn’t gonna make it to her dreams.

‘You can’t be..

‘You can’t do..

‘You won’t be..

‘You need to..

and you never will..

The little girl straight away find herself back in the crib. Barriers around her. We are setting limits straight away for her and make her believe she won’t reach or knock them down those limits ever.

I’m not saying we have to lie to our children but we are killing their positive view of life.

We are creating belief system early in our child’s mind. We are the one who are planting the seeds but we should watering and letting the light shine them through, instead of keep dropping ground on them to stop them growing and keep them in the darkness.

I may went far from my original subject but my mind just in a flow.. a looks of it.

I think my beliefs are planted by others.. they made me think of something, the way of how I see myself.. Growing up I’ve got a lot of limits before I’d be even able to dream about castles and happiness.

I’m not saying that with all the blame to others, like I don’t need to deal with my shit.. It’s easy to blame everything else but ourselves for our circumstances that we are in. And yes some things we can’t control but definitely we have a choice to make.

And No. I’ll take the responsibility because the moment I let those opinions to become my thoughts.. when I actually adopted them became my beliefs. I let others led my life and me. The wrong people! Who weren’t good for me. But I adopted their views of me. Their opinion.

And from that moment they are no longer other’s fault the way I feel, think and live about myself and my life.

‘SOMEONE’S OPINION OF YOU NOT YOUR REALITY’.

I don’t have control over many things in life but one thing I absolutely can control, that 100% and that is MY MIND! My thoughts I let in and create my believe system from, my feelings and emotions. The kind of people I let in my life.

It’s not easy to admit being unhappy is actually it’s because of me. All my fault.

But that’s the first step. I might overanalyse everything, but there is no way now that I can’t find the right questions. And yes, before I’d go and look for answers, I have to find and ask the right questions!

Then all the answers I search for will just arrive in the right time with all the solutions for everything. Because this is my belief now. That, Everything is Figureoutable!

That’s how it’s starts. To plant new seeds. Realising there are weeds in my garden. Find them and remove them. This is a big and dirty work.

Sometimes you won’t be able to move them with their core, some will be staying with you for the rest of your life. But you can make those weeds stop from growing. They will be there to remind you where did you came from, why you are today who you are. And what the journey you did to grow those beautiful roses (new beliefs) on the same part where once an ugly weed was dominating in your garden.

I’m starting to find my weeds and I’m ready to remove them all.

Hurts as fuck but I know it’s gotta go like this.

I know hell will always come before I grow.

And with that. I’ll wrap this up here.

Thank you fro being here 🙂

Peace&Love

Miti