Being active, pushing myself to my limits… and beyond … and many times defeated .. even then… end of the workout, bike ride, hike I am better than at the start of my activities. And that’s the only reason I am keep pushing myself.

At some point all these exercises become painful from being fun… so why am I (and many fallow crazy) keep doing it?!

Surley not just speaking for myself: it s because I want become better who I was yesterday! I want to become the best version of myself today!
(And of course.. because I want to look good )
End of the day I want to feel good I my skin: Had a good day? Did I enjoy it? Did I do something good for my future me?!

Today, I decided that I am going to put my mountain bike in my car and drive to lake district and do my first mountain bike trail!

Well, I am defeated! I am not built for this!
The fact that the bike’s gear isn’t working well .. not helping… not when there are devil hills I need to fight against!!! (I think it’s the bike’s fault..  I have nothing to do with it all).

I feel beaten really. And it is upsetting but it show me my weakness and where I need to improve (other than need to fix the bike… or make it electric ).

But I am having a little picnic and enjoying the sun and the silence… grounding and just being in the moment.

So, if I’m looking at this way: I am having a good time for me! I rode 10 miles in Peak District, and some sunbathing and connected with Mother Gaia again! 殺

Months ago, after such a disappointing situation I would loose my shit and I’d be very angry for the rest of the day or two.

So visible the changes I’ve made within myself. I am able to change my focus on something good in the bad!! I am seeing the good stuff   and man this feels amazing!

I had to fail today to see that change in me! Which means I became a better version of me!

Tomorrow comes the next level!珞

Peace&Love

Miti