When hard times slow you down in life from what you love to do, and if something blocks you on the route, find another one. Never give up.
Had this thought for a while.. trying to reminding myself not to quit.
Quit from what? Well, from fighting for my happiness.
Don’t get me wrong. I am happy in certain areas in my life… having my two beautiful girls… just to mention the most important one..
But there are parts where I don’t feel fulfilled, succeeded.
A year ago stepped on my fitness path and that led me to learn a lot about myself.. helped me to find my passion which I’d love to form to be my purpose and to be my mission.
But ‘life’ and ‘myself’ got between me and my fulfilment.
Having multiples struggles which hard to figure out how to deal with. And the reason for that is I stopped keep going the way I was going when ‘my head’ started to be more and more under control.
That was one: journaling and two: training.
It is okay to prioritise a relationship and a family to create a strong foundation and enjoy our life together on a daily day basis but it is very important to keep track with myself too.
Swiping my ‘hard moments and thoughts’ under the rug will just weaken me and create issues in all my relationships.
Seems like I’ve given up already as my ‘present’ is very low on social media, and not doing all my plans what I started… but in my head I’m fighting against my lazy/low-selfesteem/not-confident self and kicking my own butt for doing NOTHING. NADA.
Only one problem with this… giving myself a huge self-criticism, being disappointed for not reaching my set goals, and giving great pressure for not being able to organise all things what’s important to me…. just making all worse. Bad thoughts about myself are getting more and stronger each day.
What I LOVE to do, What I MUST do, What I AM doing.
Nothing wrong with the ‘what I MUST do‘ .. because there are responsibilities in life what we must complete but there are thing what we do love to do too. So, it is possible to create a fine balance between MUST and LOVE DO’s and there is no issue here…
Where it is then? In my ‘what I am doing now’..
I DO NOTHING what I Love to do… I’m trying to do all what I MUST do from my very best.. these to do’s are work and family… work is okay… and can’t complain much… because I have a job, able to pay the bills, not the worse place either and having a bit over the average salary…; family which I LOVE… and just in the learning phase of create the best balance with all.
And what I LOVE doing is this.. writing/podcasting and training and sharing my path of personal growth and how I manage to get out of my comfort zone; love to work on business ideas and would love to finally ‘grow my balls’ and start one and of course share it all.
All this may seems nothing to you but to me feels almost impossible.
Creating the life I’d like to live is a hard work.
Just because things are changing around me, problems and obstacles popping up will only slow me down but won’t make me quit. I just have to re-think my moves, and change direction.
Even though I am working on a solution now, I kept being impatient and angry, trying to push things forward.
Had to make a little STOP and see this ain’t gonna take me anywhere, definitely not forward.
I have to organise my shit first before I get back on the road and just need keep my eyes on the horizon.
Peace&Love
Miti